Sunday, November 6, 2011

Our New Story!

So I guess it's been over a year since I have written in my blog. Our lives have changed so much since I first made this blog. Except the struggling part. So I will update. 
I wasn't working last time until August 25, 2010 when I got my job at Super Target in Shoreview. Was it my ideal job? No but it brought in more money then my unemployment did which ran out like the week before I started there. We moved out of Anoka in September to Forest Lake with my friend Jayme again. Where we stayed for about a month again until I found a place in Maplewood. They offered me a job as a leasing agent and everything. I couldn't say no. I went from hardly getting by to making about $1600 more a month then I was before. Life was great. I had no worries. Well, other then my crappy babysitters I had who kept not showing up or running late which made me late. And then Chloe's dad made me loose my job at the apartments, which made me not be able to afford to live there anymore. So we had to move home to my parents house in July of this year. For awhile Chloe's dad and I were even trying to work things out again. Which showed to be a big fail again. And made me FINALLY realize I will never be with that guy ever again in my life. Things were going ok at my parents money wise. Cause I didn't have like any bills to pay. But the space was not good. I had to get ready in my bedroom that Chloe and I were sharing. And on weekends we had to hang out in our room till my mom woke up at noon cause she works late. So it was really hard to live there as well. But our lives really started to change when we went into my work to find Chloe a bike helmet and a guy I work with came up to us and started talking to me and helped me pick out a helmet for Chloe. He was so cute with her and she let him put helmets on her. Later that night I sent him a message and asked him if he was planning on going to the fair at all this year. He said he was and asked if I wanted to meet up with them when they go. Wow...after having a secret crush on this guy for almost a year now he finally asked me to hang out with him. I don't know how many times I tried to flirt with him or show him I was interested in him and I just thought he didn't like me. So time after time I just gave up. And now finally I knew this time I had to try again. So on Sept 3rd my life changed into something so wonderful that I can't believe I missed out on being treated this way before. Our first date he was asking me questions like did I see myself getting married, did I want more kids, what were my parents like, did I have any sisters or brothers, was I planning on going to school, what it was like being a parent, whats my daughter like, what did I like to do, and just questions I have never had ANY guy ask me before in my life on a first date or if at all. I knew right there that this was gonna be something so wonderful. I normally don't tell my mom much but I even told her about him. And she told me one day that she knows this one is gonna last because I talk so highly of him. And the way I talk about him she can just tell. On September 22 we become official!  
Well, anyway we finally moved to our new place in New Brighton October 1st. We are so happy. As in Chloe and I. Its only a one bedroom but it works and its way more room then at my parents house. It's again a struggle everyday since I'm still making next to nothing and now having rent to pay again. But I can't seem to find it in my heart when my daughter asked me to buy her something to say no mommy can't afford that right now. And then it puts me behind for the next month.  
Well, It's getting late and I need to get to bed so I will have to continue writing another day. But if there is anyone out there reading this who has been where I am and has gotten themselves out of this mess please give me some advice. I really need to help and I don't know where to get it. I can try my budget time after time but I just don't know how to truly stick to it and not take from other areas. Please help!